|don't forget the Holy Spirit
||[Sep. 14th, 2006|07:32 am]
One of the most severe problems I dealt with when I became christian, was getting very aware of my blemishedness. I got aware of the dumbness of my senses, of the slowness in which I responded to necessities. My thoughts often were disparaging. For a time I settled with examining myself after the deed, I thought I would have to ask for forgiveness and repent. But then, I found, I could not rely on this always .. I needed to get away from my wretched nature and not be bound by it. I did not want to always have evil thoughts, and be bound to them for the rest of my life. What I needed was having the Holy Spirit. We humans always serve the spirit we have. Our reasoning follows our spirit. And if we have a bad spirit, an imperfect spirit, everything we do will be bad and imperfect. A computer with a bad program will always do badly. A candle whose wax isn't pure will not burn as brightly as candles burn that consist of pure wax. Now we humans cannot change that of us that depends on the body, we cannot change our brain. We also cannot simply change our spirit. But God can do that, He can give us a much much better spirit than the one we have, and there is such a spirit, it's the Holy Spirit, the spirit of God, of Jesus, Himself. Even perfect Jesus needed Him.|
And tell you what, God gladly gives us the Holy Spirit. Take a look at this verse from scripture:
Luke 11:13 (NIV)
If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!"
Just ask God.
A problem of mine had been for many years that I was frightened of Holiness. I feared intensely that I could do the sin of blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. This is a very serious sin. I think I was afraid of this sin so that I would not blaspheme it, yet in the same time this fear was very very uncomfortable. Why were all other christians I personally knew so relaxed and at peace? Even though I believed in God, why did I not get the same peace? I did not know what to do, and decided for trying myself in self-control. I tried to suppress my evil. But this was always like trying to curb what was coming out of me, and out of myself, usually, only bad things came. I had the Holy Spirit, because I was believing and repented, but I did not have Him wholy. I did not let Him fill me wholy, because I didn't understand this was possible.
If you have problems with this, just pray and courageously receive. Have courage, my friend! Ask and ask for the Holy Spirit. The way I got him, was like getting a pill. I started to feel healthy. I still have like black spots in me, but they're not open wounds anymore, it's not like an illnesses that still progresses. And I trust that I will now just heal. No matter what happens to my body, my soul and spirit are more important. When I am completely at peace spiritually .. what problem does an illness still pose? When I am completely able to patiently bear it out, what fear can an illness inspire? This is one of the aspects of the superiority of the spiritual over the material.
Thank you for reading and God bless.